Nichole

08:55 pm: sooooo...
wsup...so whats the theme for the day...fav song for the moment "like i love you" jt turns me on and out omgg could use some right now..hehe anyway drill weekend is taking a toll on me i guess you could say briefings can be gay sometimes but the sleep after is fuckin lovely....so i took a shower after and rejuvinated me into a wild frenzy of masterbation.. ohh then found out that i get to go to cali shall be an interesting exploration if you may... so yea gettin ready to go to the CA tonight get to see my girl ginger ...get off almoost just thinkin about her anyway so since this is gettin lame really quick and i dont want to empty my fuel gage typing i shall save myself....so for those who may be wonderin wtf or who the fuck this is well its ....... that would be too easy try to guess if you cant figure it out then ask for later details ill give ya a hint its not Coley ...so happy guessing~

08:41 pm: lalala so happy
feeling the way i never have before.......... i feel so ... alive!!!:)

10:30 pm: Q:WHO'S BED DID YOU SLEEP IN LAST NIGHT?
A: my own :(

Q:WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
A: Pink

Q:HOW MANY PEOPLE ON YOUR FRIEND'S LIST DO YOU KNOW 'IN REAL LIFE'?
A: all of them

Q:WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR UNDIES RIGHT NOW?
A: lime green

Q:DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS?
A: noppers :(

Q:MOST RECENT MOVIE THAT YOU WATCHED?
A: the notebook

Q:NAME 3 THINGS THAT YOU HAVE ON YOU AT ALL TIMES?
A: cell phone, the ring my mom gave me, my watch ... o and my braclet that robby gave me

Q:WHAT'S THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDSHEETS?
A: silver

Q:HOW MUCH CASH DO YOU HAVE ON YOU RIGHT NOW?
A: $165

Q:WHO'S THE 4TH PERSON ON YOUR RECEIVED CALL LIST?
A: BRAD

Q:WHAT'S YOUR MAIN RINGTONE ON YOUR PHONE?
A: urban bleep

Q:WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT LAST NIGHT?
A: hanging out with robby, alex, anthony and patty

Q:WHAT DID THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE ON YOUR CELL PHONE SAY?
A: I am sorry

Q:How many people on your friends list are ex's?
A: 4

Q:What's your favorite town/ city?
A: Orlando flordia

Q:I can't wait to....?
A: get tech school over with

Q:When was the last time you saw your mom?
A: 2 minutes ago

Q:Who got you to join LJ?
A: I did it on my own a LONG LONG time ago

Q:What did you have for dinner LAST NIGHT?
A: i hsd big boys ... chicken fingers, salad and onion rings

Q:How long have you been at your current job?
A: joined the military june 8th 2005

Q:What's the last thing you said out loud?
A: i miss you

Q:Look to your left. What's there?
A: a mess on my floor of xmas presents

Q:What is the last thing/person you spent over $100?
A: robby

Q:Who's your favorite villain?
A: i don't like villain's ... i like the good guys

Q:Whats the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone?
A: a tanktop from tasha

Q:What website(s) do you visit the most during the day?
A: livejournal, myspace, yahoo mail

Q:Do you have an air freshener in your car?
A: yes

Q:Do you have plants in your room?
A: no... well some white roses

Q:If you could drink anything right now what would it be?
A: a beer :) mmmmm.... yummy lol

Q:Does anything hurt on your body right now?
A: yes... my tummy and my head

Q:What city was your last taxi cab ride in?
A: lol whitia falls texas

Q:Do you own a picture phone?
A: Yes

Q:What's your favorite Starbucks drink?
A: carmel mochioto

Q:Did you do the deed on prom night?
A: sadly enough.... no, lol... i drank to much and passed out

Q:If I don't like you...
A: then i am still nice to u, but deep inside i don't like ya

Q:Recent time you were really upset?
A: last night.. :(
Q:Any ideas for your new years resolution?
A: Loose more weight

Q: Admit something about yourself.
A: I am scared to let my walls down... i don't want to be hurt anymore

09:28 pm: I am still really sick went to the doc's again... and still something wrong with me.. dunno what it is though! ummmm.. i am stressed with school... and i just found out a few things medically which :( really suck. And i am kinda depressed :(................ i don't get people

11:14 am: I Don't Feel Like Loving You Today...


I don't feel like loving you today
so don't you even try to change my mind.
the best thing you can do right now
is just go away
cause I don't feel like loving you today

I don't want to talk about last night
I’m angry and I haven't had much sleep
I’m so tired and blood shot there
ain't no telling what I’d say
I don't feel like loving you today

but you know I will anyway
even though we make it hard sometimes
I’ll wind up forgiving you
and probably loving you
for the rest of my life

but I don't feel like loving you today
and I’ve got 16 hours left to go
I might tell you that I’m leaving
even though you know I’ll stay
cause I don't feel like loving you today

but you know I will anyway
even though we make it hard sometimes
and I’ll wind up forgiving you and probably loving you
for the rest of my life

10:42 am: mmmm lots of stress
So its been kinda werid lately ya know... I just got out of the hospital last week, i was in from friday till tuesday night. I had a 104 fever , it was kinda scary expecialy because i had no one close here... i have friends here but its not like home ya know. I had to have a spinal tap done and lots of tests and i was hooked up to heart monitor. It ended up just being that my body was unable to fight off the germs on its own because i was so sick. It sucked, but i am all better now...just been sleepy. This weekend really sucked because i had my mind something else the entire time... i couldn't even sleep. I still am stressed about it because i don't know what is going on. I am also stressed about school, because i was gone for a few days of school so now i am behind and have been trying to get caught up. The teachers are nice and helping me through it,but i just wish i was behind cuz it sucks which means alot more study time.

I miss everyone back home..... i got so much on my mind, but don't trust anyone enough to really talk about everything. I did talk to lindsay and thank u for listening to me, u have always been there for me. I have learned that my trust really sucks.... i just have been hurt so bad and lied to ...... maybe one day i can finaly completly trust again.

02:00 pm: I am....
I am sad :( .........

04:19 am: goodbye again......
Well i am leaving again... this time for my job traning which is where the air force trains me in the job i will do for them which is pharmacy .... sooooooo I am leaving October 3rd which is a week from today.. so i guess if ya wanna see me before i leave give me a call. I will be gone for awhile. But i will come home for xmas. Anyways.... u know the cell,if ya wanna see me..


:( ......

10:19 pm: so i haven't wrote in here in awhile....
so i haven't wrote in awhile and i've had alot on my mind so i figure now is a good time...

first wanna say congrats to dana ur little baby boy is so cute!!! Congrats on becoming a mommy!! :)


So its werid being home... i have been pretty lazy! Pretty much eating, sleeping and working out, oo and i have gone tanning, lol! So i have not really been up to much , but i think it was well deserved concidering the 7 weeks of hell i went through which let me tell ya it was hell but i pushed myself to a place i never thought i could... I do like the air force though :) and i joined as a reserve... but have been thinkin more and more about going active. I dunno maybe i will wait till i am older and get married to join active if that person wants to do that. You make so much money when you go active. I don't wanna go and live by myself though ya know. I deff think i am ready to grow up though move out and start grown up stuff,lol. When i get back from job traning, i am going to look for a place maybe nice condo or house. It's crazy how my views kinda have changed since i have left too.... it was a really good time for me to kinda come to terms with my crazy year. It really has been a crazy year 2005 for me alot of life changing things have happened to me and when i think back on them... i was really strong. I mean concidering what i went through i got through it and did not let it knock me down... and then my choice to join the military was a big change in my life, and made me 10 times stronger, I have alot more confidence and i don't let the little things get to me like they used to... nobody knows what the military is like until they go through it and i am sure the people overseas expierence 10 times more. Plus this year I found " the one" cuz he is differnt lol mr robby, who even though he is bad has really made this year alot better. I didn't plan on dating or being with anyone for a very long time, but he walked into my life and it just seemed like he came in for a reason :) and i am glad i trusted my heart and went with it. Didn't think it was possible for me to open up and trust anyone again, but like i said robby is differnt, lol and i care so much bouts him dunno what i would without him ;)awwww aren't i romantic! And so ya... i have had have some really hard times, joined the military and found someone thats differnt,lol so i am thinkin this year is going good.... :)


Leave me some messages!!!!!!!!!!!

Aldina and bri- I miss both of u alot and we need to get together!!!

Robby- Thank you for supporting me with the whole military thing :) it means alot. Also thank u for my braclet i love it :) and whenever ya want i will give the whole WoW thing a shot, lol so let me know when u and anthony are ready for me!

Dana- Congrats on the baby again :) i know ur gonna be a good mommy.

As for everyone else leave me messages :)

george straight- I cross my heart

I cross my heart and promise to
Give all I've got to give to make all your dreams come true.
In all the world you'll never find a love as true as mine.

You will always be the miracle that makes my life complete,
And as long as there's a breath in me, I'll make yours just as sweet.
As we look into the future, it's as far as we can see,
So let's make each tomorrow be the best that it can be.

04:56 am: ummmmm
mmmm sooo much on my mind..... scared to say it